and I wish I had some better way to show this
now that we all choke amongst scholars.
Maybe some way to say her without using that word
which is dirtier than all words as it carries a vulgarity
inspired by its own semantic decay:
A cup of water in July. A picture of rocks on a beach
or more recently: the last rat of summer
flattened like bloody dough beat
into the pavement.
Suffice to say: I am not kidding when I speak of a time
in which I had aesthetic problems with the concept of the modern Umbrella
but because of Her and High School and Rain and...